I Suck!

(This post is slightly out of order…I have a really good reason to do so. Someone very important to me is struggling a bit… Her confidence is down. She’s under a lot of pressure. So hopefully this helps her see. Humility is a superpower.)

I have no excuses.

I suck.

I’m a loser. I fail regularly. Many times, I don’t even realize how pathetically I’ve performed. The only thing I can claim to getting correct, is screwing up consistently.  I’ve become so good at it, I don’t even know I’m doing it most of the time.

At the end of the day, I question my choice… Volunteer Fire Captain? Who do I think I am! I mean, I suck!

And that is what has gotten me where I am today. The captain of what I consider the “go to” engine company in my department. We aren’t the best. We screw up. We stumble.

We also train. A lot. On basic skills. More than others. But not enough. So we sometimes fail.

And when we fail, it’s on ME! I’m the boss. I own the fails. They get the wins…

Once they recognize that failure isn’t the end all… that I have their backs, the sky truly becomes the limit.

You see, once I started taking the failures as my own, a really cool thing happened. The more I owned, the less the let me have.